the continuation (((:

finally, the man in the mirror

2012-01-30T20:44:00.002+08:00

Man in the mirror, as promised. i didnt rmb until i had to watch this 1 hr plus video on 'the world is flat' for IT, and he mentioned blogging. then since i'm on the computer! ;D

personally prefer this version because of x factor, but can just take away the judging parts. anw she was the winner :D

lumos reunion dinner tonight but couldnt make it! D: no voice, tons to do, presentation this fri and quiz in 2 wks. proposals for the camps due soon and so much going on. ARGHS.

the stress is officially back, but i promised myself i'm gonna handle it better this sem! :D hahaha, jiayous everyone!~

Sick AGAIN! ):

2012-01-27T22:43:00.002+08:00

Had fever running since wed and I just recovered last night, so I missed alot of outings!!! ): missed meeting jc girls for our weekly study session, and hope can meet Val next wk huh! ;D she told me still got pineapple tarts (a whole container) to pass to me for cny! HAHAHA! xD long story why I'm mistaken as a glutton! ;p I'll probably bai her mom Wei Shi instead ba! xD

Got so many reunion dinners to catch up on! D; CPs side, biz ops side, lumos side and so on! So many clashes dk how to reschedule?! ): actual cny alr over! We started planning 2 wks ago lehhh! :/ but tutorials + seminars today after a whole wk is quite fun and amazingly productive! (; wanted to take mc from school if still having fever, but oh well, I was fine! :D lessons from 830 -530 with 2 hr break in between but quite energetic and productive for me lehhh! (; hehehe! Probably missed school! Lunch at can 2 and dinner with huang and px at clementi! xD wanted to catch a movie but lotsa reasons so oh well didn't in the end. Epic was the convo at IT class tho!

Was having lessons as per normal ( 3hr seminar ) and the best is that after 2 hrs, I suddenly turned to px and Sam to say "omg! Marc lo looks so much like jack neo!!!" then we burst out laughing xD sudden revelation my IT teacher looks like a celebrity... Awkward but funny!~ looking at him after that nv felt the same! ;p LOLOLS!!!

Recently v. bad health lehhh! D; dec just had food poisoning and fever, lost voice, cough and flu etc -.- now having fever flu cough and sore throat, and after talking on the phone just for an hr, AGAIN LOST VOICE?! Why I so easily lose voice!!! Maybe it's god's way of telling me not to talk too much! xD HEHEHE!~ but I think I should be exercising more often la!!! in the past when I had more time to swim and all I was so fit lo! ); think I nv exercise a month or so (actually since uni started can count with two hands) so should make time for it soon! (: just that a bit hard with no time, still needa catch up on cny time on work, plan stuffs here and there! D: try my best lo! Trial camp, senior camp and actual camp dates are out! (; exciting feelings!

SUPER GOOD MOOD! :D hehehe

My list of wants (:

2012-01-24T01:12:00.001+08:00

Promised a few ppl that I'd post the song 'man in the mirror' here, and I would if I'm not using my phone to type this! (: when in usig the com k! :D need to study really, cos i promised not to lack behind, and I wanna honour promises to myself as much as those I made to others! So I've got to! Just that recently everyone is in such a festive mood, going out with them would normally be anything but studying! But I still enjoy it! :D and I would try to catch up again when I hve the time ba!~

It's always times when I'm supposed to be focused on studying of some sort that I have the craziest and wildest things in mind I wanna do! :3 and it's weird how I suddenly lose the urge to do them when I have like months of hols xD I'm just weird sometimes! (; but well the recent trip to east coast in the midnight, chatting like the old times, with the wonderful breeze, is really great! :3 can't appreciate it more! Altho I was really tired and there were million of cockroaches! D: *i didn't know that that they could survive without their heads!*

It's only when you grow up that you begin to realise that simple things like laughing and joking with your friends and family without any worries of any sort is really a luxury.

List of wants!!! *prolly a bit diff from most*. But currently there's a few I really wanna add:
- dancing in the rain
- successfully burying a time capsule for at least 10 years! (;
- sit at the tea corner and learn the art of tea! (:
- climbing a mountain of some sort and absorbing the breathtaking view at the peak
- counting/wishing upon stars in a tent, just like back in obs! :3
- doing yoga during sunset at a beach *sighs*
- having a self-cooked candlelit dinner! (;
- play really old school board games

Until then, I'll try my best to strike stuffs off the list as and when I can (:

Wonderful revelation (:

2012-01-15T00:21:00.002+08:00

Idk why I'm blogging so frequently, but it's either alot of stuffs that made me feel strongly intense enough to blog had been happening, or that I feel more emotional about stuffs lately.

Yest, smth happened to one of my friends, and I'm really amazed, at how all 5 of us in the jc clique just came tgt within an hr and gathered at my house for her, just after we read a few sentences on our whatsapp convo. And I'm so impressed and touched! It just made me realise that friends arent just there for the smiles and laughters, it's sharing everything, including the tears and the rants. It's being there even when you're busy, probably not physically all the time, but there in some way or another... Cos it feels wonderful to be there for someone you're concerned about, you know? It's not about the right things to say all the time, but the act of listening and trying to help, that matters.

Since im quite prepared to dedicate this post to addressing friendship, ive been thinking while in the shower about C13. Really appreciate those who still bother to come out and organize events every now and then (: I know everyone is busy, in some way or another, and there's no point listing everything down to compare. Compare the people who I think may come out more often and help in organizing a few years ago, vs the faces I've been seeing more often recently, it's quite different I must say. It's nv an obligation, and should nv be anw, that's why I thank those who still make the effort (: be it the theory of the 'holiday clique' thing, where ppl come out during periods of time they're more free, as observed, I guess I don't mind anything that much. So long everyone enjoys the time spent, nth else should matter I guess. Yes, people have their own priorities, choices and all, maybe different definitions of friendship, but I respect that. At least time has allowed me to (:

Whatever the case, there's no obligation to any friendship or relationship, and as all of us wants fairness, we all know it's quite unattainable to achieve it all the time. We all know in our heart, how much we wanna deny sometimes, who are those friends who'll always be there be it rain or shine. It's through observation and self-experience that I'm truly thankful for those around me who's always there (: and I know no Amt of thank you would suffice :3

Happy 20th anniversary!

2012-01-12T21:52:00.002+08:00

lols! I can't believe I actually rmb-ed my parents' wedding anniversary ;p it's their 20th year, which is kinda weird cos they got married the exact year that I was conceived! But no, it's not shotgun!

I was eating with my bro and dinner has exceptionally few ppl today, so I was wondering if it's cos my parents went out to celebrate. But then, I nv rmb-ed them doing that, or it's cos I probably nv asked. Until they came back and I asked mummy, only finding myself really surprised that the ans to the qn is yes! Haha but as expected, it's mummy who made the reservation for dinner. But I'm really amazed to know that daddy gave mummy a present?! *good job* I mean I've always openly told mummy that I have nv been able to see what she sees in daddy. But oh well, mayb all guys hve their romantic moments!

Trying to complete all tutorials so I can play over the wkends! (; first wk feels like shiok only! :3 next wk onwards ade wants to come over on wed to stayover before we find the girls in utown as pre arranged :3 haha!~ and van is super duper excited about hk! Haha! We can google more tgt! :D meeting toonjia tmr after lessons then salted caramel-ing with Val! (; haha, wonder when I'll really settle down for the school term!

Okays! The upcoming wkends is keeping me slightly motivated to do my tutorials! :D biz law tutorials quite funny heh!

If a man likes to slp naked, and one day his house caught fire, so he rushed out of it without having time to be dressed, is he chargeable? (;

The start of a new sem!

2012-01-11T11:47:00.002+08:00

Honestly can't really rmb where I stopped at the last time. But anw, the last few days of hols were great :3 first day of school would've been fine too if not for the fact I had sore eyes in the morning from all those sleepovers and waking up at 7am killed me :O

Not really settled down and prepared to pay attention in lectures at the moment! Most probably bcos the introduction lectures are all so boring and brief! But this sem got to be more consistent instead of picking up my tb near the last few wks and making me so stressed! :X ESP when this sem has alot of midterms! :O

Haix, just hope I'll really do what I write here huhs! :/

Biz ops reunion on mon after 3 hrs of seminar! (: haha funny to see them all again! Except star wars pretty much sucked when there's so limited vacancies! Still, my timetables pretty good with one day free and mon and wed ending so early! That's before the projects come in of course! (:

Haha! Better enjoy my honeymoon wk well before exams! (: I love the weather! So windy right now :3 want to swim but omg, I've been waking up so late recently! :p and sleeping pretty early too! ;D HAHA! I slp like 10 hrs a day. Prolly cos my body clock replenishing my body of deprived resting hours from the hols!

But sitting down, enjoying the healthy sun rays (unlike that period of killer sun) and wind? This is the life! :D
Can't wait to take yoga with toon Jia, her sis and probably Val again!
Rejuvenated! ;D

2012-01-04T22:34:00.003+08:00

final loose ends (: everything has been alright recently and school's gonna start sooooo soon! it's unbelievable. a little anticipating cos i cant wait to meet peeps i couldnt get to meet this hols, but i just dreamt of taking exams on the first day of school last night -.- at some HDB void deck, and we were queuing up for the portable toilet before i woke up. HAHA, this is ridiculous.

once school starts, prolly a day would be for studying with van as per last sem, another day for the girls (along with val if she can make it!) and sundays per usual at jk's. idk if the studying with CPs would materialize since its like accomodating to 18 diff timetables from the 2 groups. but we try la HAHA, altho unlikely tho.

titanic was wonderful today. so much better than expected! D: and it's totally making me wanna watch the 3D version (: and singapore's weather today was superb! like windy, sunny, but not terribly hot. totally perfect.

anw got real stuffs to do ): proposals due in a few minutes 50 minutes time. LOLS. and i think there's a chalet tmr. issit? i'm totally lost. like what's the date today lols! after that, 2 consecutive stayovers, just in time before school starts next week. (: then it'll be time to get serious!

wanted to use the photo album jk bought from hk for some really beautiful pictures (: wanted to name the album 'back to december' (lols lame i know) and feature all the pictures i took from the 4 trips and parties i attended! this december alone was really fulfilling (: but it'll miss out pictures from last year that i really liked. so i'm wondering if i should name it 2011 and include japan and bintan too :/ will give it some thot. but likely it wont be out by this break since the rest of the days quite packed and school reopening soon! D:

alrightttt~ back to work! :D

[EDIT] OMG!!! D: chalet its this friday afterall! *dies* okays, i think i wont stayover then okays? so prolly i'll be going in the afternoon and driving there, then leaving at like 10pm or smth for the stayover. so dead...

endless sex tips and lessons -.-

2012-01-02T14:26:00.003+08:00

THANKS ROBIN! D: for the endless 'sex stats', 'sex tips' etc xD i promised myself i'll embarrass you here! it would be no surprise if i check your google history and realise it's all about such stuffs! ;p honestly, what would happen when i throw you a com when you're alone at home huhs? *hmmsss*

got 8 'proposals' to complete -.- OMG. and i've got time line to do. initially i thought quite simple, but looking at it now... I'M SO DEAD. this is stressing man. probably when toonjia comes to stay over tonight for our late night movie, i can do up proposals while watching ):

NO TIME TO LOSE! ): JIAYOUS! ;D

Happy 2012! :D

2012-01-01T16:46:00.002+08:00

2012 has finally arrived! :D had a great day spent with C13 and it's pretty funny (: greatest fireworks display I've ever seen! D: probably cos we were so close to it and it feels like the sparks are gonna land on us! :3

Stayover with the girls were great too! (; lols stupid human UNO stacko and tug of war! ;p but they're always doing what they are most capable of! Which is just being pure crazy!~ HTHT since a long time! (:

The only thing that's lacking so far is a good night's sleep! ;p stayovers consecutively after my trips really kills my health! :X which is why after meeting Val today, im gonna go home and write my dearest diary before falling into deep slumber :DDD *exciting!~*

Time alone is really good! (: and I probably need to catch up on more of it! :S

Last wk of hols! :D and I'm so gonna make the best of it lols! (;

end of 2011! D:

2011-12-30T10:37:00.003+08:00

haha, 2011 is coming to an end. and thinking about it, it has been quite a slack year until school started! (: december has been great, not to mention pretty surreal. i don't really rmb which part of my memory belongs to my dreams and which are the ones that's real anymore! D: and it seriously felt long enough for me to start school alr cos i'm getting sick so easily from running around and all plus the stayovers and sleeping late that i'll probably nv get used to hahaha ;p

thanks to all for yet another wonderful year! (: prolly still lack a few other photos, like my JC girls whom i'm gonna meet tonight! :) next week will be the last wk of the break before another round of crazy school term, but well, it'll be a 3 months break hopefully in no time! :3

haven't really recovered from food poisoning, hmms, i wonder when i would. D: with all the food going outta me in all possible ways, it's just a little hard having them go in again. i get bloated so easily nowadays altho i have the appetite of a lion! D: i wanna eat a little of everything! can tell daddy's quite pissed that i'm falling ill from running around. but i really appreciate that he still allows me to do what i want this hols (: idk if it's bcos i'm now older, or that his temper got better. i've been trying to spend quality time with the koh family when i get to! :3 hahaha~

regrets for this year? well, idk. probably i'll nv write here and all, but this year has been pretty wonderful as i recall (: from the before uni anxious phase, to the adapting to both the academic standards and the environment till now, i'm really glad everything has finally settled down :D and i'm really thankful for all my friends who have been there years and years again, and of course, my family that's always there despite me running around through the years.

i'm probably late for later, have to rush. but i really love the feeling of ending the year on a good note! :D and since i'll probably have no time to blog tmr before the year ends! hehehe!~

goodbye 2011, and here's to a better new year! :D
all the best to all and may all your new year resolutions come true! (;

when the fun nv ends (:

2011-12-27T08:52:00.002+08:00

LAST TRIP BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS! :D crazy only, like 4 trips during 4 wks. haha~ hope this one with the CPs would be a blast! at least there's joween no matter what so should be alright! :3 anw feels like overseas chalet to me LOLS ;p

next wk is the stayovers and chalet week! (: lols, really the last time we get to play before school officially starts lo! packed throughout!~ still have to pei some idiot buy clothes LOLS. sry i have impeccable taste ;D

okays, gtg alr! printing out the deal.com tickets ;p i like the work hard and play hard culture in uni really :D

The all crazy time of the year! :D

2011-12-24T17:09:00.002+08:00

Hahaha!~ this period of time has nv failed to be one of the craziest and busiest period of the year. I'm amazed how I completed 32 Xmas cards in time and sent them by yesterday (: later than usual, but hopefully not too late! :O

Despite the lost of voice, cough, and all that's starting to develop, Xmas and the coming new year nv fails to be the best! :D wonderful catching up with dear old friends while meeting new ones and yest was truly funny ;p Val getting drunk is no joke, entertaining practically sums up the entire experience as part of the audience ;D and I suddenly start to wonder why exactly I'm called buttocks to van... Hmmms? Interesting xD talking to Joween on Xmas eve was great too! :3

Really loooove how you get to meet so many ppl that touched your lives at some point in this short period. Yes it's busy and it's tiring, but it's all worth it (: so sry I couldn't make it to cityhall in the end, but to dong tonight I really need a little rest, couldn't make it after the voluntary work this morn to afternoon! Needa have some solid food inside me now! D: it's quite scary how sickness makes you nv hungry! Got to eat! :D

Hahaha I love having family time to wrap up this Xmas eve! :D hope it'll be another wonderful night and afternoon tmr! :3

EARLY MERRY XMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR! :DDD

backkkk for a while! ;p

2011-12-22T20:54:00.003+08:00

well, had a really great time in Bangkok! (: really the craziest and wildest overseas trip i ever had. not in a bad way of course, but what's done in bangkok stays in bangkok! was telling kai, teck yeow and laura that it is all so surreal.everything was happening so fast and unbelievably that it feels like our own version of 'the hangover'. took lotsa nice pictures too! (: with someone like laura, its a little hard not to take alot!

i've yet to send those x'mas cards ): promised to do so before recce-ing with the CPs and also to vet some proposals tonight! D: still got timeline to do ): all before 2012! so dead. and there's still the last batam trip left! (: hope that it'll be fun! tmr is ZHSS x'mas party! and then there's xinyun's party before C13's xmas party (: lols alot of parties going on. teck yeow wants a new years' party, but van's side its not confirmed and all. lols, most likely i can't join them. but he'll understand la (: scheduling slpovers too (: haven't been slping well in bangkok and lost my voice D: hope it'll recover in time :x and night cycling with lumos! see if i'm fit enough to join ba! D:

updating my diary about the events that happened recently. can't believe school's gonna start in like 2 wks! D: better play till i shuang cos next sem more hiong! D:

need a longer holiday!~ ):

a little help and laughter

2011-12-16T16:45:00.002+08:00

went back to school today for CP meeting! (: everything is much much better now, be it our closeness and our level of effectiveness in working. booked trip with them to batam! omgggg,the 4th trip this month, but i had to cos it's bonding and we told them no matter what, attendance must be good. just didn't expect the outing to turn into a trip! :O so no choice lo! anw it's budgeted at Deal.com so hopefully it won't cost much! (: sharing room with joween! haha, getting to know her alot better :D

alot to do but so little time! ): colouring to do, xmas presents and cards! :D looking forward but dk how to complete in time! :X and now mr Quek asked me to write a testimonial for him (which is why i rushed home from meeting hopefully to do a little before great grandfather's annual birthday later! (: ). Really happy to do all these, but i probably need more time ): and vetting the proposals and timeline for the camp! D: plus recces and outings, still got maincomm chalet coming up! D: i hope i can rush whatever i can by tonight, taking off on monday again!

had a great time! :D before i know it it'll be january and school will reopen! (: have been a mad rush ever since uni started, probably for the better or for the worst. i need more time for myself and my friends, but i guess, it's teaching us how to cope with everything going on at once, as it would be probably in the future.

googling "testimonial for teacher" is officially of no help, guess it's like doing an assignment up on my own! (: but looking back, who knew that the teacher who inspired my passion towards history is still keeping in contact with me! :D it's really wonderful. just like how it feels like everytime we meet up with miss lim! :3

alright, back to concrete work! tonight can prolly complete more of the cards and more of the colouring LOLS xD it's been so long since i last watched the tv ): and what happened to my swimming and reading a book plan :/ i'm going to make myself at least stay home for one full day on the last wk of dec before school starts again. miss my bed v. much ):

The strength of love

2011-12-08T21:05:00.000+08:00

Haha, suppose to be in Sydney sleeping right now, but so much is on my mind :3 watched a play with my bro 'the story of a rabbit' at the Sydney opera house tonight, since we concluded that the trip here would not be complete without enjoying a play in the reknowned artistic centre (: And Romeo and Juliet - the dance, is sold out, probably months ago! D:

The play was about death, and idk, it gave me alot it ponder. But it's not just what the play taught me, but what the audience did too. I was really touched by this scene. The playwriter was saying that life is vulnerable, and the guy in front of me gave his gf (or wife idk) a kiss on the forehead, perhaps it's a really simple gesture, but well it touched my heart.

And I realized at the moment that what's more impt in the world than love? Not just BGR, but your family friends and for those impt ones around you. It's not that they don't have weaknesses, not that they're perfect, but you know it doesn't matter. Bcos through it all, you accept them for them, just like how they accept you for you. Yes there you'll be conflicts, but the reason for your quarrels is that you care for each other. You're always there for each other cos you care, you wanna be there, not that you're obliged to, not that you're forced to, neither is it for some form of status or reciprocation. You don't have to be that person's anybody. And that's beautiful...

To know that you're capable of truly loving someone, and that you're truly loved back :D

Insomnia :S

2011-12-02T10:52:00.002+08:00

Dead tired! :O home at like 7am this morn, speculated I'll be slping till 12 but idk if it's the coffee or the usual body clock, I woke up after 3 hrs of slp! D: omgosh! But hahaha, idkhow to describe these few days!~ (:

Salted caramel-Ed with val (: then movie-Ed with toonjia :3, and then went for NEYO bash (Kai's stupid name giving xD). Hahaha meeting van and Jiwei later to watch DVDs and chomps later the in the night! :D and then probably having pajamas party with an lee px and Laura before we all get too busy! So many more things to schedule but too packed alr ): plus got karung guni to plan, when will the lax part of hols kick in? I think I got to slp more during exams, but I won't grumble, cos this is so much better than the torturous 2 wks plus xD

Didn't wanna go NEYO, but it's an unspoken compulsory thing for main commers so we pulled as many ppl along lo (: clubbing is really energy draining! S: nearly got sabo-Ed to malu myself thanks to CK Kai and Reagan, promised will get them dead next time round xD but we stayed throughout, supper-Ed then cabbed home with my taxi buddy at 630am xD actually the catching up with the rest of lumos is the really good part :3 hvent talked to group A-ers for a really long time ;p

Looking forward to more stuffs later on! (: gotta get bathing and leave house in 15 min or I'll be late and van will be aimlessly waiting :p but gawd, like what toonjia said, liberation nv felt so good :D

Finally! :D

2011-11-29T22:07:00.003+08:00

well, the day I've been looking forward to is finally here! :D decorated my board yest in advance cos I couldn't wait for the actual day to arrive :D but oh well, even tho the last paper is really wtfreak-ish for everyone, at least the worst had past! :3 and it's really time to party like there's no tmr HAHAHA! kidding, still got alot of stuffs to settle, but of course it's now less pressurizing! :D

I'm so glad the examination scheuled is off my board now tho! ;)

Mr Quek's comment really made me feel so nostalgic :S it's wonderful to reminisce sometimes I guess (: like those really childish moments that really made us go LOL! stupid things ppl do in class... Haha maybe things may have changed, but nevertheless the warmth inside the heart is still felt greatly! :3

Haha, childish things like drawing our faces with eyeliners in class, how xiaohan cut his calvin Klein tag from his underwear, how we always slack around at the void deck after CO, how we smuggle chicken rice to I3 studio and stink up the room while having meetings, how we cried a bucket during sec 2 chalet, how we sang in front of the whole class *darn embarrassing* for a Chinese project, stupid English class jokes, how I always rocked my chair or stayed in class to draw on the whiteboard during breaks or after school, how I LOVED sitting on the floor instead of on the chairs xD

The uniforms, classroom, laughter, innocence would probably nv be found again as a whole, neither would there be an occasion to sit back in the class tgt. Haha, but at least I made a fool of myself before, got a little rebellious before, had my fair share of fun and memories before (: and it's pretty amazing to know where we are all heading towards now, despite all the craziness and drama ;p looking back, all those arguments and conflicts seem so juvenile. But I'm thankful for them, cos it got me to know that memories aren't just about the joy, it's about the tears and immaturity too :3

it's the season to be jolly!~

2011-11-23T21:47:00.003+08:00

YAYEEEEEE finished scary/irritating/frustrating stats paper! :D omgosh, was really quite nervous before the paper, i think everyone was? :O but hope no careless mistakes la! it's quite do-able, just that bell-curve and stuff, also dk how it'll go! :x

it's the season to be jolly fa-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la~

i'm can't wait for exams to enddddd! :D and gosh, i look forward to x'mas more than any season in the year! (: i love writing x'mas cards, i love giving ppl x'mas presents (altho it hasn't always been consistent hahahaha), i enjoy spending the occasional white x'mas whenever i get to, and i love how x'mas songs of different renditions are playing :D i love the get-togethers, the x'mas trees and everything that's got to do with the season.

i should probably studying for my LAST two papers *excited!!!* but have to settle some karung guni stuffs otherwise i'll be having lots to do in the last few days cramping on briefing and stuffs. downloading photoshop to change a bit of the flyers, but got to wait for quite a while :/ i really feel like making x'mas cookies this year, but idk if i'll have the time :O but i haven't been baking for a while (used to do it more often with val and van i guess), and altho it isn't that aesthetically appealing, it tastes not bad kkkk! :ppp

keke, okays, shall go off and tie up some loose ends on karung side before studying later since i slept like 2 hrs in the evening :X

i love this mv! :3 and the snow and everything. altho we will be having a rainy x'mas i guess,i still love that feeling it gives me :3 hehehe

arghhhh why like that ):

2011-11-21T18:43:00.002+08:00

omg, i really lack motivation to study, and it doesn't help when all our practice papers don't have answers?! D: do alr, qns we don't know only demoralize ourselves, won't even help in understanding or learning la. gosh, shouldn't have slept so much in the afternoon :/ and yes i shouldn't be here, but since SAO won't get off my back, i have to come online to send dk what emails to ppl. zzzzz.

What to do after exams:
- wash car (LOLS, i actually miss doing it! when i was vry vry young ;p)
- Read books
- Write Diary
- Write x'mas cards
- Go Swimming ):
- Sit at home while it's raining to either watch a rented movie or SLP :D
- Plan where to go in Australia (only have a few days to do this)

Well, don't have time for a lot of these now. and idk if i'll have time for it after exams too D: but i really really hope so :x haixxxx, so dead... shall go eat dinner and chiong alr ):

headache only! D:

2011-11-16T16:35:00.005+08:00

sitting in a corner beside a wall with van at orchard starbucks. and i'm having quite a bad headache. feel like puking only ): guess it's facing the comp for too long. a little claustrophobic! need a BREAK! :D

domo domo domo.

actually i realised that after i entered uni, the sentence structures of my blog posts doesn't really make sense anymore. HAHAHA. most probably bcos i'm too lazy to even think when blogging, and whatever comes into my mind (normally random thots without real connection) is just typed here.

in any case, this video sums up the 'fact of life' that jun qi was discussing with me about. think it's a nice song HAHAHA. there's just this contradiction in girls la. must be nice, cannot be not interesting, which is quite a paradox, and that's what he's complaining about. but just like how guys say 'inner beauty matters too' when obviously there's a reason why they're called 'superficial' most of the time. xD

anw he said smth that i think may be useful for guys, but i quite disagree with. "the fastest way to not get attached is for the girl to view you as a friend". LOLS xD true to some extent, but not exactly. i mean you've got to start somewhere, and the best way is being friends! :D but of course, make sure it doesn't come as a 'buddy' feel cos it just kills all possibilities. HAHAHA. it's apparent that it's easier said than done, but oh well, it'll all turn out right if you're sincere about it, i think :3

okays, BACK TO STUDYING );

a bad sign?! ):

2011-11-11T21:19:00.004+08:00

Hmms, can't believe friggin finals is next week 0___0 after like just 3.5 months of studying, they covered 5 whole textbooks, and we're supposed to be proficient in both content and application. finished OB notes *hurray!~* but i really tired alr ): going to stay up later for studies (hopefully can) for the first time in my entire life, this is how bad it is D:

in any case, what does twitching cheeks mean? :/ its like been twitching every 15 minutes?! since yesterday. it's like i know what twitching eyelids symbolise, but cheeks, isn't it a bit weird? not that i have a lot of free time but its too irritating and i googled it up, said smth along stress, lack of magnesium etc. which one is true?

anw, going for voluntary work tmr with van (: haven't been there for quite some time since our usual story-telling slot has been replaced for 2 months now i think. but in any case, brings my mind away from studies at least :D and sofas came!!! :DDD i was like walking past it one night when i came home (didn't even realise), until my ah ma told me they arrived. so i ran up and down to check it out. not bad heh, along with the coffee table :D

Haix, going to download IOS 5 for my Iphone, but no time. probably after exams ba! but december will be so busy ): 1 Dec already got NBS BASH (kinda looking forward altho it's kai's lame theme - shades up), 3 + 4 Dec flyers distribution, by then have to settle alot of documents and stuffs -.-, and 5 Dec onwards, overseas :/ don't even have time to write x'mas cards! ): guess i'll have to bring some on the plane to write lo. LOLS, since on it nth much to do anyway. HAHAHAHA ;p *ingenious time saving technique or what*

I need my own time, and i'm kinda dragging this post (intentionally) so i don't have to face that AT lecturer for stats online since i haven't been attending his lecture. puts me to slp only. but there's no time left to lose! ): so here i go *reluctantly*, good bye...

HAHAHA, i really need more good laughs xD

Grouchy! D:

2011-11-07T19:36:00.002+08:00

Haix, idk if its the time of the month, or that it's really bothering me. It's like I'm back to this qn again after so long. Actually I'm conscious of the change, and at that time when I was asking around for opinions nobody seems to take it seriously. I was struggling between being as 好 to 欺负 or be like everyone else, have a limited tolerance level. It's like years of contributing without needing reciprocation isn't even bad, but it's like things that people can stay out of, when I finally decided I had enough, staying out would mean that I've changed. It's alright for others to 发牢骚, but when I do it its being impatient? );

I really appreciate those comments, but it's like throwing myself out there in the open for people to bully you know? D: like when others know I don't have a temper, they go well beyond jokes, sometimes they can talk to me harshly whenever they feel like it. Its like just bcos I'm nice I can be trampled over? :/

I just hope my friends can be as understanding towards me as I've always been towards them. Ade told me to be myself, as I would like to. But if being myself only causes me to be taken advantage of, sometimes I really wonder what I should do. Being too nice or not as nice both has it's own set of problems. Argh, feeling really frustrated.

But after writing this I really feel so much better. I'll see how things go again I guess

Omgawd?! D:

2011-10-27T21:40:00.003+08:00

Haixzxzx, my head hurts like crazy, and I'm falling sick again )< damn sickening leh, test after test, ppt after ppt, then finals coming in 3 wks?! D: I don't think I was half as tired during a's! ); had a wonderful wkend that just passed, I'm really thankful for my friends and family :3 then had biz ops quiz on tue, finally smth that wasn't that bad, but next wk is horror wk! ); there's OB ppt, biz ops ppt, biz ops assignment (I should've done it last wk -.-) econs quiz and stats quiz D: following wk got stats case report due and marketing individual assignment :/ wanted to start early, but how to?!

Didn't want to rant so much, all the time over here. I read myself also sian, but it seems like I only have enough motivation to blog when I need a break from all the projects and work. Sadly, the greatest relief is to rant somewhere, but Idw to irritate ppl. So here it is. And I hate that I have like 3 ulcers in my mouth and having no voice again );

Well, shall be less of a mood spoiler! Can't wait for Halloween night at resorts world USS (; altho I think I'll potentially have jelly legs! And clothes buffet! (: I know I shouldn't go for both, I'll prolly have no time to study, but one is free and the other we paid a month ago without knowing that our schedule would be killing us! ;X so suan le lo! Just try my best to cope and pray for the best! (: I guess after this break, I'll bathe and chiong a few more chapters. Quite productive for a thurs (I'll normally slack) so not bad! (; but I guess no matter what still cannot finish what I wanted to! And I really haven't gone swimming for like months now! :O it's a bit hard too when I reach home at near 12 every night (endless project meetings) leave home at 8, and when I finally have the time, it's raining! D: no time for myself, don't even talk about writing diaries ); I think I write once a month now!

Saving $$$ to fund my busy but fun dec hols!!! :DDD yaye~ feel bad to get $$$ from my parents all the time, since they're alr paying for oil and stuffs. But probably with my bday angpao, i won't have to be so tight with my wallet! (; hahaha I guess I really think saving it's quite Fun! ;p quite motivating leh!

Okays, need to freshen up and drink more liang teh so I won't fall sick during this crucial period! :X

JIAAAAYOUUUUUSSSSS (:

Cannot be bothered honestly

2011-10-06T19:36:00.002+08:00

when things get too scary, and its not like you haven't tried, what else can you do? Standing from a distance now, having a better view, I wonder if some people know that they themselves are the victims as well? All of them may possibly be aware of the pain they are inflicting on people (do they?), but do they know what the people they call friends talk about them behind their backs? Probably by now, I've also become a victim, or have been one before. At the end of the day, ask yourself, who, among your friends are you absolutely confident, would stand behind you when you are being accused or gossiped. Maybe you can say you don't care, but at least I care to know who my true friends are. And what, if I tell you, that even among yourselves, I've heard of things that you'll be shocked to find out? I really don't want to expose anything, but maybe at this point, you'll realize that in the victim's shoes, it doesn't feel so good eh.

Well, maybe that's why I'm choosing between what I value more now. Maybe it takes time to get a clearer view, but I'm at least glad that in my heart, altho I don't say it, who are those who won't backstab me.

Drama mama! D:

2011-09-27T11:59:00.002+08:00

Well, had a hell of a weekend, and recess week just started. haven't been sleeping at anytime before 1am (the earliest so far) since friday, and that's a whole switch in sleeping time from JC's latest 11pm. 0____0

Friday, had lessons, finally submitted the stats report we rushed out last minute on thursday alone. Teck Yeow is some intellectual dude who plays chinese chess?! chilled out a little at hall 16 recreation room after the project submission on thurs night and it was really funny xD lost to kai bcos chinmeng moved my 'horse' and that was after 3 moves since the start of the chess game -.- Laura was LOL-ing totally. Anw, met van, went to collect the tickets and off to POP after picking robin up! :D thanks alot, i know you didn't have to do it, but well, hope it's a new experience as well (: Gary cabbed down * a round of applause* and took pictures while enjoying the buffet food (: Heard a 'KOH WEI TING', in the middle of taking pictures, and there was the legendary 186cm tan wei jie. xD anw, congrats to jingkai, nickyeo, weijie and nicksia etc for finally being the leaders you all have slogged out long enough for. and so, left around 830, dropped off gary near my house, and then went to F1! (:

Met big bang in the car park, super lucky or what! D: van was hyperventilating xD Hahaha, and then was the concert! :D jenn and warren came, and we were sweating like after a work out when it ended, and it lasted only for 45 min xD lost half my voice by then :/ hahaha, but like van promised, TOP was good looking, and she got a really good shot of seungri. hahaha~ rushed home, slept at like 230am i think? super shag, but cool.

Sat, went out with family, then took afternoon nap (really too cui), before Be1401 came! :D they were late *thankfully cos my afternoon nap exceeded 2 hours* and an lee and peixian were excited max! kept laughing idk why xD not long after, had to leave them alone at home while i go out with my family to celebrate da's bday :D by the time i'm back, i realised that my entire house was raided xD they took like millions of shots, explored my fridge, raped my eeyore etc xD KTV-ed, reached the max no. of songs, first time i experienced it, HTHT, and slept like at 4am after going out to da bao supper back. and that's when i officially lost my voice the next morning.

Sun, left house in the afternoon with them, then wanted to pass notes to pu yuan. really sry i misplaced it, i'm still searching for relevant info, will send you when i've found smth useful! D: so in the end, fetched jk to TTSH to get medication and MC that he didnt use, before going back to watch F1 and friends with benefits online. ate dinner, traveled home and vetted some proposals. amazed that many quite in bar, and joker kenneth yeo wrote it out like it's some critical essay xD dk how i'm going to present it some time this week to exco and the rest.

Name: Yeo Zhi Jian Kenneth
Matriculation no.: U1110586J
Seminar group: 7
Instructor’s name: Prof. W T Koh
No. of words: 1000 words
I acknowledge that I completed this Fright night proposal not on my own, but the completed assignment is a reflection of my sadism.

some joker xD no wonder he's doing fright night. haven't read it, will do so later!

came monday, drama mama day! Met marketing group at simei mrt cos it's near adrian's house (: bought gongcha, had a little bit of drama there, then went to do project. all of us honestly quite cui, after doing for like 3 hours, our brains quite fried. cos none of us had really gotten a good night's slp since idk. ate lunch, HTHT, then all of us went to adrian's house to look at 'yuhao', his dog! xD golden retriever, super cute! :D but it's really quite big, like on fours he is up to my hip?! and since he's a male dog, he humps anyone he sees quite badly. and so, adrian had to leach him up. plus an lee is super scared of animals xD stayed a while, then adrian drove us to our lumos chalet! :D He's super nice, and all four of us quite shocked xD

okays, BBQ! :D met alot of the group A-ers (including edlyn) that we didn't get to see for sooo long! xD laura was camwhoring as usual (her forte) and yea, we were crapping and all (: then, while me, px and an lee were getting drinks, she fell into the drain accidentally cos it's super dark and got a really deep cut. honestly, we all thought it was just abrasion ): CK carried her to yong yeh's car, then PX, Sam and i followed. drove her to the clinic, and i know it's really quite pain from the way she's crying and how the blood cannot stop flowing. after the clinic, we had to visit CGH's A&E to get some jab, stitching and x-ray :/ haizxzxzxz. super scary, and it was damn sudden. but i'm quite impressed all of us kept calm. alot of people really nice, like kept asking us, or an lee how she was doing. laura, bel, sharron, jun qi, chin kang, liyu etc. and adrian, damn funny, cos he was whatapping us : hope you guys are home safe and sound now, while all of us are at CGH waiting for an lee to be stitched D: when he knew what happened, he wanted to come down all the way from his house, at midnight, just to fetch us all home after we are done! But we kept insisting it's ok, cos yongyeh alr offered to do so (: By the time bills are paid and everything, it's alr 1.30am, so yy drove an lee home, followed by me and peixian. *damn nice la, cos he's staying in the east, and an lee is like at pioneer, and me and px were in the middle. totally not along the way* slept at 330am after washing up and gosh, had a hell of a day, it seems so surreal cos i was half awake since 130 am.

meeting val later for lunch at auntie kim's again! :D after which i think i have to rush back to vet the proposals since joween is done with her side :/ sore throat is really quite irritating D: and i'll have to do career foundations survey and everything that adrian said will take a few hours in total, and i've got a lot to do this recess week D: 2 projects to research on so far, and that's not even catching up on studies yet. ARGH D:

this is probably the most detailed post i'll get to do before i start next term, since end years are starting on 18 nov?! wtfreak, time really flies lo.

anw, read robin's post, and really kudos to him. I think all of us are busy enough, and old enough. probably we have a more mature way of handling things now. i hope.

rationality

2011-09-22T00:26:00.002+08:00

don't know if i've grown up, become more mature, or don't really have the time to be too bothered, but i guess i've become more rational? (: it's a good thing i hope! whatever the case, should always choose the best choice.

met van and val today! :D supposed to study, but like all failed study sessions with them, i enjoyed myself ;p hahaha, maybe they'll stayover this friday. and BE1401 is coming this sat! :3 time to really let our hair down and enjoy! but there's like exams in one and a half months' time! D: and like quizzes, presentations and assignments -.- zzzzzzzzz maybe it's time i'll have more time LOLS!

can't wait for the weeeeeeekendddddds~ supposed to have main comm outing this friday but oh well, for F1, next time then bond la! :D dk how to vet proposals, and mr jun qi is not helping with his comments 0____0 what's 'good luck' supposed to mean.

anw, shall concentrate on my stupid stats report for now! okays, hair about dry, SHALL SLEEP! :D schoooooool tmr at 9am to do stats whole day.

want to die, need to slp

2011-09-15T21:50:00.002+08:00

omg, critical thinking essay is killing every single living cell in me. IF there's any left. how am i supposed to generate like 2 1000 word essays like in 3 wks?! i thot the collage and creative thinking one was hard, haha, critical thinking really deserves its name.

Went to meet vas and adeline just now in the afternoon. (: they were telling me i look damnnnn tired. LOLS, true, but they should take a look at those people staying in halls and how they look when they come for lectures. not all, but alot. can't wait for recess week really, but its not really recess. and i'll have to go back to school for like 4.5 hrs on that wed cos of some career foundations talk. okays la, 1 AU, i shall just go. vas is leaving for US this coming sat, so well, all the best to her while she's there (: sounds really exciting! :D but she's independent so i'm not that worried. Hongyao is leaving next week! and it feels really weird that people i've been hearing of are flying every now and then. just feels like its a different world.

As next week will be a full packed week! D: good and bad (: studying in school on tues with peixian and zhiheng (dk if anlee and bram can make it) till late, probably weekly prac alr, then meeting van on wed to study also (weekly prac too), thurs, maybe must meet stats group for our report due on fri -.- last min max, or can meet joween to vet proposals tgt, then fri is what i'm really looking forward for! :D okays, apart from the sergeants' POP, (van is coming too cos we will be rushing off for F1 concert after that), we will see BIG BANG! :DDD hehehe.

anw jk really better be honoured! D: *apart from guilt tripping me the entire of last sunday* we are skipping charice just to rush down to pasir lebar!!! i dont even know how to drive there, but guess i'll have to figure a way real soon! :x thank god it starts in the evening tho! (:

and i feel reallllllyyyyyy bad to BE1401! ): they wanted to come on fri to sing k but i havent broke the news to them that i alr have concert and POP to attend on that day :/ i think will tell them after i rearrange my schedule so that they can come ba! :D

okays back to work ))):

Malu?!

2011-09-06T21:02:00.002+08:00

Lols I'm supposed to start on marketing and finish my stats, probably start on some project and there's 2 quizzes coming up ._. but oh well, I gave myself a 'reason' to rest cos I'm just home! Been in school from 10 to 730? And I believe my brain (and mouth ehehe) should get a well deserved rest. Be1401 is a really comfortable grp tho! :D really glad at least the latest lesson is the most enjoyable one! ;DDD

So I was rolling in bed, literally, watching tv and reading blogs. And loh and behold! I came across Van's and I read this post on us so many years ago?!?!?! :O and YES I'm going to kill you xD amazing how we met! And how some things just don't change (: even if so, for the better! ((; I'm really proud of your change in temper! *since you mentioned it first* and looking at how we used to look, HAHAHA! ;p

I've gone from resisting change to embracing it i guess. But I'll appreciate the things that doesn't more, cos it's really rare :3

Well, got to get bathing and starting on tutorials again :/ zzzzz. I want to slp so bad.

baby girl

2011-08-25T11:57:00.004+08:00

really busy nowadays but that's really not the point of me ranting here. D: like i've just gone through the most ridiculous moment of my life. i get the point that there are people in universities who takes hostel as a place to do funny things they want to, and just bcos some IT guy at the company told my dad that uni kids got ppl like have to go for abortion bcos of this, it doesn't mean I AM ONE OF THEM! :O

recently been going home damn late, crashed over yesterday cos i'm really too tired to think i can drive properly home without falling asleep, and since there's no lessons today partly, but honestly, we are just a group of friends, with no other motivations other than to HTHT since we're alr there. plus, there's project date lines to meet, aka friday, there's like main comm meeting starting at 7pm tonight (my supposedly free day to rest), there's really nth i can do but to suck thumb. *army lingo*

i'm really rationale enough to not get myself into more unnecessary trouble at this point in time. if i wanted to, it could happen anytime, why now? omg, and it's like i really need a little trust. i know that they're worried that i'm young, probably adventurous, wants to try smth new etc etc. but really, now? uni so far has been great, and i like that LUMOS is really a friend friend kinda situation with everyone as of yet. partly cos most ppl are alr attached, but besides the point, we enjoy the status quo for now.

in any case, our group doesn't consist of any adventurous individual, jumping straight into relationships, or probably smth more physical. life is too busy, we're having too much fun, preoccupied with too many assignments. haix, i hope my parents would stop thinking too much, and trust that their upbringing isn't that bad afterall.

okays, so quite done with our proposal for tmr, supported zhiheng at some jam, ppl in my group for BE1401 really loves to sing! :D and knew much more about kai and teck yeow, and their funny gay experiences. like cool. ;p and i've half of stats tutorial to rush and of course my collage and 1000 words essay. knew some things that i'd rather not know i guess, and in the course of the week, grew pretty tight with pei xian and an lee :3

fulfilling week, it's not over, and i hope that school won't grow dull even when assignments and stuffs are piling up (: the discovery of the other sides in every person is really quite an interesting process! :D of course, the stress levels go up as more projects pile in, with later nights to slp in, and shorter attention span during lessons. but all's fine and well in the meantime. (: i hope next sem, i'll get to see these wonderful people somemore. anw we're planning NBS FOC tgt next year, really can't wait to plan with them! :DDD

meeting van and val for lunch tmr, C13 on this coming sat like finally (: and then going in to malaysia for a short wonderful trip i guess, and more studying to come on sun usual practice! :D spend much more time in NTU than anywhere else for this wk tho. even longer than stay home hours! sry i can't help shu wei and peixian on sat, shall wish them luck HAHAHAHA xD

tutorials and more assignments to come! :O

P.S:// if i really wanted to try it out, why must i wait for stayovers at the halls? with breaks in between and the hall always there, it really doesn't make much sense. 0_______0

BUSY AS EVERRRR~

2011-08-17T23:14:00.002+08:00

recently i haven't been able to slp until like 1am la! D: *ask val and she'll know cos she was damn surprised i've 'changed' my sleeping patterns ;p* tutorials, haven't do and catch no ball! (mainly cos rapheal is yakking away during lectures and said it's ME who was distracting him? LOLS) those without rapheal at least i know what they talking about! xD

gosh, damn tiring. it's like meetings, tutorials, lessons, interviews (elections) and it's a never ending cycle. even though i'm supposed to end school at 1030 am today, i was home at like 7pm? D: monday was 11pm, tmr i speculate 11pm. imagine no car, i can totally say bye to my curfew man :O

and tmr supposedly my rest day some more ): i love my BE1401 group though :D can click damn well, planning to go for kbox and massage soon BUT that's provided we can squeeze in time ;p other tutorials got LUMOS to get me through la! (: an lee and pei xian are my official buddies for mostly everything at the moment! xD seniors are really nice! but once they start talking to us it can last up till like 4 hours?! xD that's mainly the reason why we are always home so late T_T

haven't got the chance to watch tv for so long other than 'love' since it's the only dinner tv program. but really, damn happening lately! D: CCA fair, i dont even know if i have time to join one that i can commit in :/ D&D coming up, stayovers for shuling's bday, buying presents too, lumos outing, and madcow still keep calling me to their outing -.-'''

OKAYS, back to tutorials otherwise tonight no need slp le. need a break fassssstttttt.

2011-08-10T15:41:00.002+08:00

Next time if you have anything to say pls say it straight to my face. Cos there are things that I know and may not want to expose.

Anw, really funny day! (: lecture damn short. Camwhored a bit cos Rapheal loves taking pictures ;p meeting van soon! :D haix recently scandals flying about in hall 6. Lols shall stop my sarcasm xD

start of schooooool ):

2011-08-09T13:33:00.002+08:00

school has started and thank god there's lumos to make lectures/seminars less boring! D: it was funny la, but honestly, once we had to quiet down, it's totally natural to doze off and zzzzz. can't get used to studying, and what's more, first day of school had to be non stop from 9.30 to 4! D:

driving to and fro was more tiring! :O thank god toonjia was beside me talking, cos i really could've just fallen asleep! xD after fighting 'STAR WARS', real glad that i got thurs free with peixian! ;DDD WHOOOOOTS~ friday still end pretty early! (9-12pm) so i can still meet ppl to keng gai after that la! :DDD

just posted on the textbooks we're supposed to get tgt tmr! damn alot, i think add tgt can easily top 300?! lols! xD lunch with lumos + bowl clan seniors tmr! :D 12.30 so late tho!!! :C it's like we end school at 1030 HAHAHA. okays, soon projects and tutorials are to come! better get tuned! :D

many things happened last wk! :D too many to update. but crashed at hall 16, which was really fun but we got up feeling total cui the next morning! bugis outing wasn't that bad for non-hallers (: sent nick off! all the best for the next 3 wks! met van after stephanie's (been such a long long time!) for chomp chomp and jk joined halfway! (: crashed at my house again, sing k till i totally have no time for my voice to recover D: finally meeting ade reggie and sl this thurs! :D haven't seen them since forever cos of continuous camps! met miss lim!!! talked to her as an adult for the first time (i guess hahaha) and glad to know some relationships, career and life advice (: and finally learned a little more of her love story! :3 this friday to celebrate mummy's birthday! :D dk how to meet the kohs since i'll have make up classes till late ): and that explains, i'll have to push shopping with van to tmr after school hopefully! (: OHHHHH NOW THAT WED NO LESSONS CAN PEI VAL TO PUT BRACES ALR! :D since van's going too! ;p talked to val on the phone like last time! been soooooo soooo long!~ hahaha, okays, this is just a whole lotta info mashed up into a paragraph!

sleep is never enough nowadays! :D shall go complete some stuffs! ;)

Zzz but FUN! :D

2011-07-25T00:32:00.002+08:00

Haha, back from camp and it's wonderful! (; no time and energy to write specifically what happened, but the ppl there damn on and fun! ;D alot of ppl good looking la, in case anybody is still keen to know. Lols! xD fright night wasn't really scary, sentosa and dirty games really quite hiong, but I love sp night and da pai dang! (; damn fuuuun! :D games weren't that bad la, I think after a while we used to it alr, so not that awkward and shy lo! (: just get it over and done with.

But really quite cui cos like one wk only slp 6 hrs! D: everyone like total unglam and no image in front of each other alr, so anything goes huh! xD like we see each other soaked in mud before, or in sea water, or drawn like a cave woman before going to bugis, so okays la, have fun can le lo! ;DDD

That's why on fri when jk came to find me I was in total cui state. NTU VERY BIG HOR! D: totally dk where we going and how to go out. Honestly I think there's nth to hide about la. Okays heck la here goes, was too tired and slept at his house's couch. His family damn nice la, think quite shou liaox. His Sis kept taking care of me and ps have to borrow stuffs lols. Slept in the room with his sis and by the time I woke up damn tired still. Wahhh eye bags! But today better a bit la! (:

Went to ev's house for house warming. Talked a bit la but I really quite cannot take it liaox. Cabbed home to slp, wake up for dinner then slept again. Hahahaha! xD it's nv enoughhhh!!! Woke up, talked to van about stuffs!!! Then met Val for beancurd etc! (; haven't talked to her for sooooo long! Met jk again at nex, watches bridesmaid, dm dirty show. Then met LUMOS!!! :DDD

Haha for our og dinner, IT'S FRIGGIN HUGE!!! :p real fun tho! Like we got 10 tables linked tgt?! D: around 50 plus 60 ppl came I think. Seniors from any generation that could make it came, our group only a few couldn't make it. Did chew-ah-chew again!!! :O really wanna puke huhs! :X beancurd leh! Khye nam totally spat all the syrup in leonard's mouth la! GROSSSSS. kudos to all those who drank the last mouth!

Cabbed home with Tiffany and Li Yu! (; hehe! Promised to go for supper on wed night or smth! :D should pull a few more along! :3

Zzz, hair still not dry! Shall orh orh soon! ;D

soak uup the fun

2011-07-15T11:40:00.003+08:00

hahaha, finally able to slack! :D still got a lot to do la, but i guess since we moved in, it can be left for later. except school's starting and now even union camp has got back i got no time to slp for the next 2 wks! D:

lols, thank god i've done some shopping with van alr ;D hahaha, bought a school bag *honestly the BEST buy* and some clothes oooh and the pretty charm bracelet, but i havent done enough and school's starting in less than a month alr! ); no time considering i still got to get 2 gifts for my SPs *gasp* and get sleeping bags etc that i lost during moving lols! xD still got to go to her house to do some closet sorting :DDD hehehehe. thanks for the ecard girl! ;D love the squirrel much! :3

excited/nervous about camps huhs!!! D: reggie is breaking from her camp alr and the way she and sl described it, it's like damn awesome xD py made it sound really calm since she's not afraid of anything! ;ppp LOLS. but other than the 3 of them, i dont know if any of the rest had gone for camps yet. ade's going soon i think! :D LOLS, i can't imagine sleeping so little for 5 days, considering i'm such a piggggg. rawr

need to finish reading the other 2 books by chris manby :D stupid bishan nlb charge me so much when they cannot process by re-borrowed book T_T whichever the case, it'll be so much fun soon! :D yet to go to ikea to get my hung up paintings, but i won't get to drive there till the end of the month and by then, school starting. no time to familiarize with anything.at least mi and di letting me drive and guiding me as and when they can now hahahaha! still not used to the bed, and the room, or the house. ah ma's been of great help! :DDD

meeting joyce soon! (: talking about that, really surprised that miss lim fb msged me LOLS! ;p want to see baby em since so long ago, bet she's turning 2 by now or smth but it's so hard to find justin LOLS! xD which i'll leave to jk since they're supposed to be all buddy buddy and stuffs hahaha.

okays, meanwhile, i shall like train myself to be more bold since yuting said that fright night this year would be exceptionally scary! :S hahahha, and that supposedly, the more bold we appear to be, the less we will get tekan-ed. it's pretty hard tho, since i friggin look so white, i'll look scared no matter how brave a front i put on. but hopefully, they'll mistaken me for 'one of them' and leave me alone. hahaha, carefully thot out plan heh? ;D

kkkkkkkkk, shall go prepare now! :D

Blessed! (:

2011-07-07T21:23:00.002+08:00

So sick and tired right now! :/ gosh moving is so frigging tiring when there's like so many things to move. Dad's overseas, bro's having exams, mom and ah ma not able to carry heavy things so it's honestly exhausting D: like one wk still not done?! :/

Thanks for those in C13 who helped with the cleaning and those who had the intention to help but cannot due to some other reasons (: appreciate it alot! Thanks to love and the girls (shuling Reggie ade) who offered to help me move things! :3 in fact the girls are coming to help me early in the morn tmr!!! (; really touched <3

Okays! Back to work! (: JIAYOUUUUS!

you smile i smile (:

2011-06-21T12:00:00.002+08:00

well, been a really tiring day although i exempted myself from work yesterday! :D and that i've been pretty much slacking around since i'm here this morning. but honestly, my boss is taking advantage of me! >( not that bad now that i've told them that it's impossible to finish so much stuff now that i've got to do the work of some other worker who can slack and is unable to meet deadlines. :O *okays not exactly in that phrase but i've got my idea across*

i never realized how tired i am until i stayed in the whole of yesterday! ;p been ages since i done that and it feels honestly gooooood. woke up at like 12.30 pm after like uploading my passport photo for NTU .__. , then went to eat lunch, read my book, build a little jigsaw, and figured i was so tired i fell back to sleep :x (lols like wth xD) woke up at 5 plus pm, continued watching tv and trying to complete the rest of my puzzle but GAHHHH I CAN'T MEET THE DEADLINE SINCE I'M MOVING IN A WEEK OR TWO! ): i still got packing to do *yes, this tiring chore of putting everything in a box and unpacking it all over again just across the street* and the camp brochures have come! :D did a little bit of researching on MJ and its auditions. well, will see about that again since its in september (:

i really needa quit soon ): *if i'm allowed to go* there's camps coming up, i still got to move, and honestly complete the puzzle since it's impossible to move half of it off my floor, and i need to get stuffs for the school term! :S okays, it's a pretty big achievement *after 2 hours of it yesterday* to complete putting in like 20 pieces xD

okays, need more luck in that! :p still got medical checkups and driving stuffs this week :/ traveling is so tiring, although you just have to sit there and wait for whatever you are sitting on to bring you closer to your destination. but i'm practically spending 3 or 4 hours traveling to bukit batok driving centre and then to the child care? -.- thank god i got a book and ipod to keep me entertained xD but still... transport fare... :'(

the photos for bintan turned out pretty nice i think! :D although van insisted that most of it are quite ... majong was fun, first time for me playing with $$$ and dinner with C13 was a good catch up at our fav hotspot (: daddy day dinner was cool and as usual super filling! xD i think i'm having memory loss of smth cos i honestly can't rmb most of last wk until i see my organizer. xD

okays! shall go eat my free lunch now! :D *thank god at least the aunties are suuuuuper nice to me here! :p and did i mention that the cooking auntie can basically open a restaurant alr?!*

matriculation! :O

2011-06-17T09:04:00.002+08:00

guess will be moving back soon! :O been saying that, yes, but omg, the thot of moving really excites/scares me. the amount of things i have to pack and unpack just across the street is a little ... lame. LOLS xD chose the blinds for our windows yest, said it'll take about a week to put up. so well, dk if we can still meet the date we intended to shift. *co-incidentally on toonjia's bday hahaha*

next week will be a suuuuper busy week :/ haixxxx. driving revisions and simulators, meeting up with ppl, voluntary work, helping out with art, and i still haven got time to take my passport photo for NTU! :/ i haven't even finished matriculation *i admit i'm lazy to print out the form thingy for tuition grant but i have to do it sooooon D: * there's so many things to fill up like 0________0

aaaaand i haven't really asked daddy about going to bangkok with yuting and van. xD 1st week of july is so soon but he's so busy with settling our house's stuffs, i think it isn't really the right time to pop the question! :x but i honestly doubt i can :/ cos without bangkok, i'll have alr gone overseas 3 times this entire hols! :O spent alot alr but well, they're all honestly really fun :D

haven got time to meet up with the girls (: hopefully can arrange next wk since they'll be going for camps as well. meeting van later! :D but ikea is so freaking far away and so inacessible *bleghs*

oh haven blogged about escape! xD okays la, prolly was the last time i went in before it demolished or smth. with USS, it's pretty hard to keep up the business. fun still tho (: *freaking killed me on the top of the pirate ship i felt like i was jumping down!*

P.S:// van and jiwei should have recalled me in sec 2, sitting right at the middle, screaming my lungs out *i really lost my voice after that* and slipping down the more the ship swung -.- horrible experience, but without them, i wouldn't have even gone close to the ship before xp

JET LAG! ;D

2011-06-15T09:43:00.002+08:00

What time is it where you are?
I miss you more than anything
Back at home you feel so far
Waitin for the phone to ring
It's gettin lonely livin upside down
I don't even wanna be in this town
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
It's drivin me mad
I miss you so bad
and my heart heart heart is so jetlagged

What time is it where you are?
5 more days and i'll be home
I keep your picture in my car
I hate the thought of you alone

I've been keepin busy all time
Just to try to keep you off my mind
Tryin to figure out the time zones makin me crazy

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
It's drivin me mad
I miss you so bad

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/jet-lag-lyrics-simple-plan.html ]

and my heart heart heart is so jetlagged
heart heart heart is so jetlagged (x2)
is so jetlagged

Oh oh
Oh oh

I miss you so bad(x4)
I wanna share your horizon (I miss you so bad)
And see the same sunrise (I miss you so bad)
And turn hour hand back to when you were holding me

You say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
It's drivin me mad
I miss when you say good morning
When it's midnight
Going out of my head
Alone in this bed
I wake up to your sunset
It's drivin me mad
I miss you so bad
and my heart heart heart is so jetlagged
heart heart heart is so jetlagged (x2)
is so jetlagged

S.M.I.L.E! :D

2011-06-15T09:35:00.004+08:00

i'm in such a wonderful mood today! :DDD addicted to the song: Jet lag. whooooooots~

can totally feel that i've grown up! :) for some reason or another, and i'm really proud of myself. never thought i'll say this, but well, it's such a great achievement! :D

listening to jet lag and typing posts is the greatest!!! i'm suddenly so in love with italics. i can't wait to move, and get on with life, like decorate my room, drinking a cup of milo while reading a book, listening to HIGH music, go swimming, cycling all over again, play the guitar, and OMG puzzle. LOLS. but i really don't have the time ); so many things to do! :x

true happiness comes from within :3

Feeel so fresh! ;P

In the nick of time

2011-06-08T13:16:00.004+08:00

Been doing some thinking. It's been really long since i had time for myself until this long (seemingingly never ending) holiday. There's now time to read books, catch up with my friends as much as i'd like to, spend more time with my family, time to write diaries, go swimming, play my guitar, listen to music without rushing anywhere and reflect.

Kinda scared yet excited with regards to the new school term. Life will be back to the busy but unpredictable one. There will be new motivations in life, new purpose, new people, new lifestyle. The changes that are exciting yet scary. But what's more, with everyone heading different ways now, and with greater responsibilities and commitment, will some things stay unchanged?

I'm not really in the mood for a very emotional post. Life has been pretty good in a way that i'm dazing more than thinking hard about the past, the present or the future. I've learned how to cope with not being too bothered over everything. it's a really great feeling.

Gossip Girl. Something that i've started like 2 years ago, but something i haven't completed. HAHAHA can't wait to once i put at end to my life as an employee in a few weeks time - for now- ;p

I probably need to spend more time with my bedroom :D

{EDIT}
omg, was reading van's blog and i came across the flying fish! *sigh* honestly, sitting on it (although eyes and arms hurt like 0___0) is the most SHIOK feeling evaaaaahhhh! :DDD i want to go jet ski-ing and para-sailing & snorkelling someday. ohmygosh, i miss the beach all to ourselves ):

i love water sports!!!

have a kit kat

2011-06-06T11:14:00.001+08:00

Had a crazy Saturday night. Totally reminded me of Bintan when we went crazy drinking vodka! ;p This time it was a little worse, cos I felt a bit like puking right before I slept! :x lols, this sat, with a mix of juice instead haha. Guess the guys were totally shocked seeing us like this for the first time. Actually I think it’s okay still leh. Just that we are laughing a lot only lo LOLS.

Hmms, moving at the end of the month and there are lotsa things to do! Chose curtains and wall colour yesterday night and the attic is about done except for the sound system. Shall go visit it and see how things are like now that there are some furniture in our rooms! :D

Finally got back my habit of reading. Thanks to someone. *youknowwho* Well, found this new author of chic-flicks who is really hilarious. (: Guess I’ll be visiting the lib more often after I have quit! *end of the month and so looking forward!*

One month to prepare for everything. Clothes, books, tidy my super messy table and GOSH I FORGOT THE ONGOING JIGSAW! :O still got like half to complete but I’m quite stuck cos its all white .____. I cannot see at all where should fit where, but well, have to do it before the end of the month before I move! :C diexxxx.

I hope everything is going well for you. i’m not certain if I can help, but I really hope it’ll be alright in a while. I cant promise it will be, but I guess, when things are down, it’ll only go up soon right? Stay positive, and take care!

at the end of the day

2011-06-01T08:57:00.003+08:00

i've realised who are those who have been constantly by me all the while when i needed help and support, who are those who just come to me when they need help with smth, and who are those who used to be there and are less so over time.

It's been so long since i've come here. And at the end of so many years of friendship, i've learned how to appreciate ppl who were there to cheer me up in the worst of times. I don't need to name them out for the whole world to know, but i appreciate it so so much.

<3

just thought that i needed to get some stuffs out off my chest, and write out stuffs to people that mean so much to me. I don't need a special occasion to do that. B'cos some are just so special that no day in the world can thank them enough.

Back on track!

2011-04-18T22:50:00.002+08:00

Well, really glad that everything is back on track (: life is more or less back to normal and there's 2 good news today! :3 really cheered me up alot alot! ;p

bought a F21 top today (that i've been wanting to for damnnn long) and then i'm now considering working at salted caramel cos its near my house and more convenient to take care of mi (:

it's been so long since i last listen to 88.3! ever since i changed to an iphone and moved house (which is about the same time la) cos i no longer have the radio function! :O so now that i have a device to isn't that bad heh :)

it's really refreshing to take a step back in life sometimes (: i mean, it's all so tiring to always rush, climb to the top, now that we finally have more time for ourselves, sit indoors with a cup of milo and a book, to catch up with what everyone is doing, it's wonderful :3 yea, i'm sure that in a longer period of time, i may feel really bored slacking around, but not at the moment yet (: i've still so so soooo many things to do, and i didn't have the time to. be it finish the jigsaw (yesssss, it's no longer a secret, maybe i can still rush it out by anniversary ;p) or like visit my old house and check out its progress, or like complete my 11th diary, or like hmms... go swimming again? (:

just been out really early every morning, home pretty late at night, but its still, interesting (: i only have like 2 hours per day for myself right now. i guess in 2 weeks or so, i'll have too much time for myself that i'll scream SOS. but wait til then. :3

ooooh and prolly go around trying my favourite desserts :)

thanks for the support (: love you guys muchhhh! <3

That's what friends are for

2011-04-16T09:13:00.001+08:00

WE ARE ALL IN THE GUTTER, BUT SOME OF US ARE LOOKING AT THE STARS

Thanks so much :3

Touched

2011-04-15T14:06:00.002+08:00

Its during times like these that you see who ppl really are.

Somehow who may be quiet most of the time may not mean they are emotionless. They may just be shy. Someone who isn't very liberal about his feelings shows you how to read more into his actions.

Whatever the case, we learn about things everyday (:

Really appreciate those who were there ;3 bcos it's during times like these you know who are people who will want to be in your life (: for good or for bad.

Cheers! :D

It hurts

2011-04-12T23:37:00.005+08:00

Suddenly, nth else looks as impt anymore. It stings, but I'll survive. Bcos I know I'm needed, bcos it won't help by bawling.

And then I realize my purpose in life. My purpose in her life.
Her life doesn't have to be amazing, but her heart is.
I love her so.

Thankful and appreciative of those who has always been there. Couldn't have done it without you.

when memories are forgotten

2011-04-09T15:11:00.002+08:00

sometimes, you just need to be reminded that some ppl are impt in your life. you may forget it at some point, but you cannot deny they've been there for you all along. things may turn ugly, you may get too overwhelmed by your anger to rmb how special that someone is. but hey, take a step back and you'll see that they are the ones you want to see 20 years down the road still in your life.

it takes alot to forgive, and more to forget. but what about the times when they were there for you when you just needed someone to listen? there is no point holding on to a grudge that is so trivial compared to the friendship.

and that is what i learnt today.

Ben and Jerry free cone day

2011-04-05T12:07:00.001+08:00

Guess what? It's Ben and jerry's free cone day and amazingly they came to my company? :O giving out their new flavor which I forgot but it's not very nice ;p the cow and some girls came up and shouted surprise and I was like wth? Someone's bday or what. And they took pics and the cow kept moo-ing. -.- and he kinda kickboxed a little and hi-5-Ed us! LOLS! Talk about a weird day ;p

when a man loves a woman

2011-04-01T00:15:00.003+08:00

when a guy is willing to put down his pride and ego rather than to forsake the girl he has always wanted

omg, it is such a bitter sweet story! LOLS! although i dk you at all, i support you all the way! :D HAHAHAHA, okays you can help me convey this to him val ;p

哭笑不得

2011-03-30T09:37:00.002+08:00

Gosh my brother will be the death of me! :O

Apparently last wk he asked me to remind him to send Jingkai a happy bday msg and I did this morning.

So he replied: O er so how?
Me: then send happy bday la! Lols you sarcastic or what! xD
Bro: what sarcastic? I don't have his number haha!
Me: -.- *states no.*
Bro: haha idk what to write. Write er happy bday ah?
Me: take away the er la!!!
Bro: I send alr woops

Idk whether to laugh or cry Sia! He damn gl xD

2011-03-28T00:12:00.002+08:00

never fails to make me smile :3

picture perfect :3

2011-03-27T22:13:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHA ;p

life's good :3

Happiness (:

2011-03-27T20:38:00.003+08:00

yaye~! finally 公主驾到 is going to show on cable! :D hahaha! this coming friday! (:

actually, i think that i'm pretty lucky! :3 Things are going pretty well lately (: just that monday to friday its the same old routine all over again. And i finally understand what Monday blues are! cos apparently when i was in school, i find school pretty fun ;p hehehe, drawing and playing games during lectures, our long talks during breaks, laughing like there is no tmr! ;) so glad we are still pretty tight :D

haha, and apparently celebrated the march babies' birthdays yesterday! (: went alright, eventhough it caused quite a bit of chaos here and there last wk! Hope everyone enjoyed it. And honestly the last time we had a stayover was ages ago! Eskibar is noisy, but a new experience, ktv-ing is not the first time but pretty fun *for me at least* :3 i hope val and van can stayover too soon! :D Meeting van on tue! :3

Just had a really filling dinner with my siblings! :D and omg, we saw a rainbow in Thomson! *it's just amazingly rare in this area* Was at liquid kitchen (: but the food there isn't as good as its drinks! lols, had a great laugh huh! then after that went to the newly open ice cream store across the road, where i used to stay (and will be soon staying again lols). Been drinking for 2 consecutive days :x And guess what? i saw shawn (primary school) hahaha and he could still recogize me tho i just found him familiar. shall tell Toonjia tmr! xD damn funny, cos he was asking me if i was from Mayflower Primary and my sisters were thinking: all 4 of us were from there. LOLS. Smth with meeting pri school friends heh? i saw Benjamin and Jeremy at Marina Square that day! gosh, they're everywhere heh? oooh and i saw xueting at Toa payoh not too long ago :D The ice cream there was great tho, but a little tad ex, but since its on my dad, hahahaha, we just went around trying food xD

USS with family + Roy (yea, he's now part of the family!) next saturday! (: okay lars, i feel that nowadays, although work is really the same old thing everyday, i had more time for myself than studying! And so far i met my new year resolution of spending enough time with my friends and family :3 ehhehe, much better than last year! prolly thats why my parents have more or less cut some slack la. closer to my siblings and dad this year (: have always been close to my mom la xD still have to plan miss lim outing! LOLS, wonder when we'll be able to see baby em! ;p laopo must be really looking forward to meeting her ^^ and oh ya, minds with the girls and Mr Chris Ong?! ;p hahaha, didnt expect he so on huh ;D

Feeling really fortunate lately (:

It nv fails to make me feel really lucky whenever i see that look in your eyes :3

Friends are for life

2011-03-25T10:16:00.002+08:00

everyone wants happiness without pain, but you can't have rainbow without a little rain

Probably that's the beauty of life (: I understand everyone is getting busy, pessimistic and frustrated during this period of time. But when things feel like it's crappy, it's gonna turn for the better, after all, it can't get any worst right? :3

Just know, true friends will be there rain or shine (: cheers!

Because

2011-03-23T10:07:00.002+08:00

Because even the most understanding and selfless has their limit. That's why people got to learn the hard way, cos apparently they can't see when chances are given, when ppl have been there being taken for granted for so long.

Sometimes, there is no right time. And it's simply too late for regrets after you realize everything comes crashing down on you. Perhaps this is reality.

Sometimes we can't go overboard. For even when wounds heal, scars are still left behind. Some things can be forgiven but not forgotten. Some things just can't go back to where it was as though nth happened...

Belated :X

2011-03-19T12:04:00.007+08:00

This episode of GLEE made me really happy! :D love the wedding theme! :3 talking about it, Toonjia's sister is getting married next year! ;) so happy for her huhs! :O its like known her for so long, cant believe that things are progressing so fast! ;p Wilson looks like a nice guy too huh, hope they'll be happy tgt! :D lols, really nice of her to invite me to her wedding lunch as well! :3 just hope that toonjia can make it as well :/

hahaha! Fire drill was cool yesterday ;p at least i didnt know companies have this as well :x they had kickboxing during office hours too! but i didn't join, LOLS. next wed prolly going for dinner to send shima off, lols, will see how it goes! :)

okays! i'm so so sorry i should've posted this so long ago! D: but well, here it is! :D *lost my USB cable, dad just got me one. hehehe*

Alright! :D so many things to do, so little time :c but still, cheers!!! ;)

Sunshine after the rain :3

2011-03-18T10:08:00.002+08:00

Well, it pays to think positive! :D I'm feeling so recharged and happy all over again :3 hahaha! ;) Got this warm fuzzy feeling inside and for some reason, I'm feeling friggin hyped up about nth at all xD

WHEEEEEEE~

Okays, shall go swimming tmr morning, been ages cos of reasons I'm unable to disclose ;p

when everything seems like it's falling apart, just don't worry, cos things can't get any worst

Super duper happy :3 fire drill later! xD LOLOLS

happy :D

2011-02-27T23:13:00.009+08:00

幸福微甜
　　

这城市夜晚闹哄哄
人潮像快转的时钟
这不是我要的感动
廉价的妆都太浓
这感觉我不知怎么形容
街道上闪烁的霓虹
就像是短暂的笑容
能不能给我一分钟
安安静静跟你沟通
亲爱的我真的跟他们不同
话不多我天生慢熟
不是不想牵你手
只是在等你微笑点头
对你我始终温柔
请别怪我沉默害羞慢熟
为拥抱找理由
我真的爱上不罗嗦
可以很勇敢大声地说
幸福上演剧情微甜我轻尝你的脸
开心明显我们往对方的身上互黏
快乐不避嫌我们住在彼此心里面
一天天累积眷恋
幸福上演剧情微甜我轻尝你的脸
结局鲜艳故事里我们一起走很远
完美一整遍爱刚出炉正新鲜
我轻咬下永远
这城市夜晚闹哄哄
人潮像快转的时钟
这不是我要的感动
廉价的妆都太浓
这感觉我不知怎么形容
街道上闪烁的霓虹
就像是短暂的笑容
能不能给我一分钟
安安静静跟你沟通
亲爱的我真的跟他们不同
话不多我天生慢熟
不是不想牵你手
只是在等你微笑点头
对你我始终温柔
请别怪我沉默害羞慢熟
为拥抱找理由
我真的爱上不罗嗦
可以很勇敢大声地说
幸福上演剧情微甜我轻尝你的脸
开心明显我们往对方的身上互黏
快乐不避嫌我们住在彼此心里面
一天天累积眷恋
幸福上演剧情微甜我轻尝你的脸
结局鲜艳故事里我们一起走很远
完美一整遍爱刚出炉正新鲜
我轻咬下永远
你要什么其实其实我懂
那恋爱就该放轻松
跑车拉风不需要眼红
过多的掌声是种虚荣你也懂
我不会编织那美梦但却会让你很受宠
给的真心很受用
幸福上演剧情微甜我轻尝你的脸
开心明显我们往对方的身上互黏
快乐不避嫌我们住在彼此心里面
一天天累积眷恋
幸福上演剧情微甜我轻尝你的脸
结局鲜艳故事里我们一起走很远
完美一整遍爱刚出炉正新鲜
我轻咬下永远　

super junior m's new album! :D & its composed by jay chou! HAHAHAHAH perfect combination man ;p

i'm in such a good mood, its honestly indescribable! :3

you're cut out to do anything you set your mind to

hmms, whatever the future is, whatever destiny has for us, let's just let nature take its course ba (: it's too late to do anything about it, so let's just stay strong tgt and enjoy our last wk k! :D which ever the case, life goes on! ;D

today's reall beautiful. it made my day. sometimes, it made me feel like i could fly...
time to wish upon a star and go to bed :3

Sunlight! :D

2011-02-27T09:39:00.003+08:00

Whoa, this morning when the sun came streaming in the bathroom while I was bathing, it's really a wonderful feeling. Like omg, I just realized that ever since I started working, I haven seen much of it D: I feel like I'm a vampire xD leaving before daylight, returning home after sun set. I feel like pinic-ing, cycling, or doing smth that can soak up the sun again! :O nv thot I'll say this but omg I miss morning pe playing all sorts of funny games and running around the track hitting each others' butts and talking about all sorts of funny things xD hahaha. Singing sometimes, and then cheering each other on! :3 haha.

Damn funny, my bro is now constantly consulting my opinions if he look shuai before he leaves the house ;p an honor? Obviously, dk he interested in someone or what nowadays dress like he is going to orchard everyday :D haha, I love dressing my bro up! *he better not see this*

Much better (: jiayous and make the best out of everyday!!! ;D can't wait for so so many things! :3 haha my dad plans to only teach me one route after I pass my driving - to and fro from my future school. WAHAHAHA he can slowly wait, I know I'm road blind but I'm going to ask ppl to teach me so I can go home later than 10 xD hahaha! ;p

Damn funny, he keep saying that after uni he won't control me alr xD say I want get into relationship or party out late at night also ok. I told him by then I 枯萎 alr la! LOLS.

that's sufficient alr :3 hehe. Early in the morning at 6 o'clock...

Bcos it's all untrue

2011-02-26T23:26:00.003+08:00

Well, one reason why I don't use it often is bcos I think it's an untrue gauge of what is the truth. What is on it, does not reflect the true relations in reality. Cos if it's truly so, I would do it through a more direct way (: and I don't need anyone to know :3

Thank you, for this entire day proved to me a whole great deal (: taught me alot, it's like another chapter, a whole new beginning. And adds on to the collection of memories. (:

And thank you, for listening always :D bcos it would have been harder without your help :3 much appreciated! (:

All in all, it's during these times you know :3

very very very happy! :3

2011-02-13T21:16:00.002+08:00

It's this mixed feeling whenever i hear your voice now, but still very happy and touched (: and that you still rmb! nv expected that :D it's really long today, and pretty early! cannot imagine the state of happiness i am in now huh ;) i finally understand how robin feels xD

hope all of them are alright in there! (; it'll all be over in the blink of an eye!

first day of work tmr! :D and i'm pretty excited (: hope that i get my voice real soon tho :x otherwise i really dk how to communicate tmr! thank god there's toonjia still la ;p hehehe. been in what seems like a coma xD so i got to sleep early although i like totally slept for 4 hrs in the afternoon? drank like litres of water as well, and i finally know that fluid (like chinese herbs an herbal tea) can actually make people full D:

hmms, life really has perspectives eh? it's always better to look at the brighter side, although sometimes, we are tempted to wander off (: feel pretty accomplished today despite sleeping alot!

OMG I'M IN SUCH A GOOD MOOD RIGHT NOW xDDD

okays, got to go bathe and have an early rest! :3 another entry in my diary later! (: a fresh new start tmr!

I'll miss you :/

2011-02-09T23:41:00.002+08:00

Well, first practical lesson was better than I thought (: I like the encouraging instructor and how he is so friendly etc. Was pretty nervous at first but wow quite fun :D haha! Next lesson this Friday!

Hmms, falling sick again :/ sore throat *omg I hate it more than fever* and I think I nearly got fever this afternoon? Hopefully will be fine soon! (: and cough. Like xiong di Jie Mei or smth xD

Dinner is pretty nice (: I like the ambience huh, love the live band altho the lead sounds a little like goofy in one of the songs ;p celebrating Van's bday there so that she will be called on to the stage! Fengrong shaved botak and it's quite ok to me so well, will get to see the other guys like that soon (:

Bought heels for work! (; wahaha! I'm looking forward to it lols! Prolly cos I think reading those stuffs and checking through them is quite interesting? Combines reading and work xD and working with toonjia! :3

Hope the 2 wks will pass fast! (: shall be more optimistic about it than getting all teary eyed etc. I believe :D

as time goes by

2011-02-07T20:55:00.002+08:00

was reading my diary again... somehow, i managed to dig up alot of things that i've actually forgotten. although most of them are still in my memories, i somehow lost track of how i used to view things.

i realized that i had alot of faith, that i was more optimistic about things, that i used to be the one seeing what others are telling me now. but somehow along the way things changed, maybe some stuffs happened too many times for me to give them a benefit of a doubt... i forgot what changed my perception of things, forgot what made me more negative, more fearful, more pessimistic. Now that i rmb why, i know.

i miss the old me, i miss how things were much simpler, how ppl were too. I miss times when people were less selfish.

Probably just like some, I'm giving myself an excuse for my change for the worst. Protecting themselves, just like selfishness,lies and negativity, is an excuse people give for their behaviors.

Perhaps like them, i forgot that when you truly care about someone, there is no need to be so calculative about things, that the greatest reward for your hard work and efforts is the genuine laughter and happiness of your loved ones.

from the bottom of the heart

2011-02-05T01:50:00.000+08:00

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

i'm on my way to believing

Back to me

2011-02-02T10:28:00.002+08:00

You know how it feels at the end of the day you've accomplished a lot when all you did was to talk and chill out? It's like there is someone to bring your mind away from things, talk about anything under the sun and laugh it off. Things don't necesarily has to be of substance for you to feel great. Indeed laughter is the best medicine.

There are people who bring a smile to my face. Somehow, through talking about non-sensical stuff, even sharing troubles can become smth to laugh over. I like that feeling.

There are also those who cause you to frown. Yet sometimes these ppl overlap.

You know who will be there when you need someone to assure you that when you wake up the next day everything will be better (;

I really miss those days.

Forget it

2011-01-30T10:33:00.002+08:00

Actually, forget it, only going to tell those who genuinely want to listen (:
Might as well not bother those who think I'm preaching.

Gonna video search and watch it all over again! :D

SUPER JUNIOR!

2011-01-30T01:23:00.002+08:00

i'm too excited to sleep! :3 buahaha! :D omg, so satisfying lehs, i cannot take it (:

okays, its probably going to be a para of nonsensical content to ppl who cant feel how i'm feeling right now, but honestly, screaming, waving light sticks and seeing them dance not through a tv screen is like ... WHOA! i'm not going to behave like a lunatic at this hour, but ahhh, i need some time to come back to earth. :3 kekeke!

me.is.a.happy.girl.

k, i shall rest my aching limbs and hoarse voice

SS3

2011-01-29T08:11:00.003+08:00

here comes the day!!! shall only think of the happy things right now (: cant wait huh, after like first liking them in 2008 due to some closeup by mtv, i cant believe im seeing them real life soon!!! *whoooots*

its prolly the only thing that can hype me up so much and make me feel happier right now. watching them is always the remedy ;) hehehe. yes, i'm reaching to the fan girl buried deep in me, but its like SS3 soon, so i dont really care what others think of me right now xD

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

A quiet time (:

2011-01-26T20:01:00.002+08:00

Well, really forgot I had smth so impt to me (: really sorry to neglect it for so long but been so caught up in life I had no time to update both my diary and my blog :x plus I'm on a major project right now! :D friggin hard sia but thats exactly what makes the outcome more worthwhile :3 I'm half done I guess, by tonight got to finish more! Back ache huh :x

Supposed to shop for cny clothes but I'm not really in the mood :/ somehow as the years pass, I feel less for the festivals I used to be so hyped up about. Is that what growing up means? D: haixxx. I nv liked cny songs, but it has nv got on my nerves like this year! ): however, still very excited about 团圆饭! Hehe, preparing as a family is cool :D

I'm trying my best to keep to my new year resolutions the whole year round! ;D can do it can do it!!! :D when there is a will, there is a way! (: so far the resolution on spending equal time with my family and friends is not bad! :D feel accomplished! ^^

Alot of things to do and so little time ): working soon, will take on camp instructors on wkends that I'm free, joining kickboxing/muay Thai with Val and maybe van as well, learning driving (hoping to clear asap!), helping my bro with his work, picking up let's not to teach robin, and guitar for love (: and I want to bake with ah ma! ;D hehe and of course swim whenever I'm free! ;) somehow til now, swimming just frees me of all troubles :D once this project is done, prolly nights will be more free but really hard Sia.

Have to help mommy bao angbao soon too! And help her settle her iPhone probs xD

K,k done with rambling :D

In the middle

2010-12-03T14:14:00.002+08:00

Thanks for the memories. Perhaps life has smth more for us, but at least we are able to handle the situation in a mature way.

I'm contented (:

lost

2010-12-03T11:56:00.002+08:00

sometimes its possible to believe in what you dont see. there is always a part in people that seeks for consolation and warmth. they may fear it but yearn it at the same time.

its a hard to grasp that feeling, understandable, but unpredictable.

yet sometimes, ppl just want to be there, without anything in return.

it's just so contradicting sometimes.

倪安东 ;D

2010-11-20T08:04:00.004+08:00

倪安东 finally got his own album! :D hahahaha, very happy ^^

and i like this song! ;)

by:龙战天下

倪安东-幸福事小
曲:《PianoBallad》填词:蓝小邪
歌词编辑:闫江超

吃完镀了金的牛排
镶了钻的蛋胃还是那么的孤单
只有一想到了晚餐
有你的笑下饭漫长的一天才不难挨

穿着限量版的衬衫
羡慕声不断也没让我觉得温暖
如果不是有你呼吸
在皮肤上不散怎么抵御世界的冷淡

幸福是一想到你就心安
地要老天要荒的谁还想管
幸福是一起醒来说早安
海枯石烂这种大事与我无关

听过圣诗般的称赞
嘘寒或问暖耳朵也开不出花瓣
直到你在电话那端
问我几点下班动听得让心花灿烂

攀过最纯白的雪山
最澎湃的海回忆也没有更精彩
直到你侧脸的曲线在我手心蜿蜒
才懂得什么事最浪漫

幸福是一想到你就心安
地要老天要荒的谁还想管
幸福是一起醒来说早安
海枯石烂这种大事与我无关

幸福是完成你每一个期盼
登月或摘星留给谁去狂欢
幸福是陪着你回味遗憾
伟大的圆满与我们真的无关

suju tickt purchasing in like 1 hr plus time!!!! D: nervous sia :s
*fingers crossed*

hypocrisy

2010-11-07T08:51:00.003+08:00

its amazing how people can smile for the sake of smiling and get close to people for the sake of surviving.

yes, the art of conversation is to avoid saying the wrong things at very tempting moments.

but nth is comparable to lifting people's hopes and damaging them all over again. sometimes, it takes more than just the superficial effort to find the meaning in life.

its disappointing, not to mention frustrating, how good will can be manipulated over and over for one's selfish interests.

At the end of your life, you will never regret not having passed one more test, not winning one more verdict, or not closing one more deal. You will regret time not spent with a husband, a friend, a child, or a parent.
-- Barbara Bush

we live in the same world. choose to see the best in things or the inadequacies in life. it's a matter of choice, not a matter of fate.

for walls who have eyes

2010-11-04T22:41:00.002+08:00

The walls we build around us to keep sadness out also keeps out the joy. - Jim Rohn

:3

2010-11-04T22:25:00.004+08:00

dancing in the moonlight :3

they may forget what you said, but they will not forget how you made them feel
- Carl W. Buechner

jiayous for the time being! :DDD

thanks

2010-11-04T13:10:00.002+08:00

马善被人骑，人善被人欺

falling in love with a friend

2010-11-03T08:36:00.003+08:00

thanks so much, love(SH)! :D for introducing this song ;) i like the girl's voice alot! ^^

feeling pretty ... today. haha, idk, feel more like staying at home and read all my diaries, my 伤心盒(that somebody tried to steal! D:) and listen to those old school songs that i would sing to :3 but that means staying at home = no need to study sia. sian-ed :/

i want to swim sooo much ): but since i woke up late this morning, i think i can abandon the idea. tmr morning bahs (: since ah ma will be here anw :DDD

the sun's scary this morning! its the first time i'm awaken by the sun rays. really 太阳晒到屁股 huhs. it's like A's is over sia ): idk why i'm feeling this way. WTHHHH :c

ahhhh! must persevere! D: haha, i'm going to take a day to slack at home and do everything i want after a's. i really dont rmb the last time i stayed home for an entire day ah :x lols! so i'm going to ask ah ma to come, bake smth nice to eat, swim, go cycling with cheng, read my diaries, write it, and just lie in bed listening to the music while staring at the 天花板 :3 and of course, decorate my room, play the piano (really long since i did that as well), guitar etc. (:

i shall stop thinking of paradise ):

P.S:// i like it how my primary school class blog is still alive ;D LOLS! ^^ gathering after a's sia! :D

At a glance (:

2010-11-02T16:26:00.002+08:00

I'm so not supposed to be here huhs ;p opposite me is sh and van. Well it's a break from further chionging (: phone batt running low. But well, need a break of some sort (: haha!

Well haven really decided whether my final decision still stays (: but well. I'll wait for a's results to come out before finall deciding bah (:

In any case, I cant wait for a's to be over!!! :3 hehehe. The girls say they want to stayover at my house straight after 23 nov! Then of course shopping for prom stuffs with them since we got an additional wk :D then after 29 nov nick said want ton at my house for a wk, which obviously is not possible. But well, we will see about how we can celebrate. (: Val wants to kickbox again (: suuuure! Haha! Haven't seen her for eons man! And of course, shopping with van (: think the last time I did that was soooo long ago? And we will be asking Jiwei along rite? ;D hahaha! Swimming with toon Jia since we wanted to do that since like pri school Sia! Omggg. And dinner with jk and my sisters, bro and her bf xD weirdest combi EVER but oh well since it's my sisters who proposed it I'm all for it (:

And for my own, I cant wait to design my own room, get furniture and stuff (: I want my own reading corner! ;D and I'm sooooo going to read again (: I miss those Chinese novels Si ying got me so hooked on in sec 4 and those shopaholic series that van intro-Ed. Heard from toonjia there's a new one ;D whoooots!

Paradise after a's man (: so many going on! And oh ya, promised to make my family a family shirt :3 YES LAME, but oh well (: so long two treasure it ;)

And Xmas time for celebration and card writing all over again! SO HAPPY MANXXXX ;D

Hee, enough (: persevere through the 3 wks (:

good-o-morning! :D

2010-11-01T08:17:00.003+08:00

haha, i have always been a morning person (: and i'm proud of it!

been really long since i blogged about random stuffs like sunny mornings and stuffs (: oh well! in a really good mood and i'm going down to get breakfast soon! ;D the torture's going to end in THREE WEEKS(plus and minus for some poor souls who have only 1 paper 1 after i end - hiahiahiahia. nvtheless, its only FOUR more wks so jiayous!) my friends! so hang on :3 altho its going to be whatthehellmanx tiring, i'm sure we'll make it through! ;)

to get the HALLOWEEN SPIRIT, although its like 2 days ago, here are some facts about halloween on my fav website! :D hehehe, obviously when i'm bored, i look for stuffs like that ;p

http://allwomenstalk.com/7-fun-facts-for-halloween/

cheerfulness is the atmosphere in which all things thrive :D

so cheer up folks! :D
*can't wait for A's to be over eventhough it hasnt started -.-*
still... *WRIGGLES!*

When it all falls apart

2010-10-30T17:41:00.004+08:00

I'm having a day from hell
It was all going so well (before you came)
And you told me you needed space
With a kiss on the side my face (not again)
And I nv mention (the tears I shed)
I should've kicked your (ass instead)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cos baby

Everything is f-Ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta keep myself up where so I start
Cos I cant turn to you when it all falls apart
No

Don't know where I parked my car
Don't know who my real friends are (anymore)
I put my faith in you
What a stupid thing to do (when it rains and pours)
And have I mentioned (I drank too much)
I'm feeling hung over (and out of touch)
I need intervention
Attention to stop temptation to scream
Cos baby

Eveything is f-Ed up straight from the heart
Tell me what do you do when it all falls apart
Gotta keep myself up
Where do I start
Cos I can't turn to you
When it all falls apart
No

Can it be easier
Can j just change my life
Cos it just seems to go bad everytime

Miss you guys

2010-10-18T20:18:00.000+08:00

You know how you can miss someone's presence? Be it Their laughter, Their care and concern or their smile (: haha. Haven felt this way for very long. As we grow up, I'm starting to miss the moments I really enjoy when I was younger. As we are caught up in the rat race, we often miss out on things that mattered to us... But I'm really happy I didn't give up anything impt to me along the way :D

Nth beats having that all familiar feeling of being around your loved ones. (: a dinner with your family, a chat with your friends.

This may be the busiest moment in my life. But probably the happiest one as well :)

A walk to remember

2010-10-13T14:41:00.002+08:00

i've been hearing everyone say how nice this movie is but seriously its wonderful <3 shall catch it again after 'A's :3 made it onto my top list of favourite movies (:

Forget it

2010-10-08T16:10:00.002+08:00

Hmms idk what to say. Expected? Disappointed? It's just not worth it afterall. Next time it's better not to expect the better of someone rather than feeling like that over and over again.

Once bitten twice shy. I think I'm freaking stupid or smth.

At least maybe

2010-10-08T10:14:00.002+08:00

Hmms I'm just happy that at least we meant smth before. That alone is enough. I know it's hard to break away the wall of aloofness that has been built for so long. And we don't need to know. Just know that we will be there no matter what to listen, to support. Maybe one day things will be better. And we definitely hope so. I know we cannot alleviate the pain permanently. We will still try in our own small little ways.

Still thanks for trying (: when I saw that it alr suffice (:

When nth you say matter

2010-10-07T20:53:00.002+08:00

It's like words of comfort fall on deaf ears. I'm sry there's nth others can help. And I'm sry things had to turn out like that. I know not Much time is left. And it's always easier being the ones who console than the ones receiving them. But I just really hope to say it's nv too late to try. I mean we are here might as well give it our best shot. Jiayous everyone (: as simple and often insincere as it sounds, I really just hope nobody gives up at this crucial point. I may not be the first one to say it, but still I hope it helped in a little way or other.

And it really sucks seeing all these and not being able to do anything about it

Stop thinking D;

2010-09-20T19:38:00.002+08:00

Thie feeling's creeping up again. It's irritating how I cannot control my thoughts. Sometimes I'll hope that things nv happen. When everything is clear and starightforward I thot friendships will last for life. Some stuffs cannot be changed, some stuffs may nv be forgotten. Cracks remain after glass breaks but is there a chance it'll be as good as new?

Do I really Have to face the fact that things will remain like this? I don't understand how ppl can forget what happened in the past and totally just change :/

Tried talking it out but didn't work. Idk mayb I'll just have to accept fate and how it ruined a friendship that I thot would last.

Hope I won't have to face anymore of such situations anymore. But it's not within my control anw.

Sry just need to get it out of my system.

Fear D:

2010-09-16T14:33:00.002+08:00

Idk but smth is changing about the way I view certain principles I have in life :/ used to think even if someone Has bad intentions, if you treat someone sincerely, that person would be touched and treat You wholeheartedly. Idk has the world changed? I'd really rather not know certain things.

Sometimes ppl confide in me certain things. Since young I've heard a Lot. Different sides of the story, distorting the way I feel and see things. Idk what's true and what's not. I've been caught in between all along. And perhaps this would continue to last. I cherish everyone, but at the same time quite torn apart. Guess I'll have to strike a balance between both. I don't understand why ppl don't want to be honest about it, and settle it once and for all. Even if one side still bears a grudge, I'd rather I not know and believe that everything is fine.

Well, guess I'll look on the bright side. (: I've tolerated for so long. Perhaps I'll just turn a blind eye to what I don't want to see, and pretend I don't know about what I've heard. The last thing I want to do is to be caught within the mess and become judgmental myself.

Everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses. Guess we should always notice the former and help others correct the latter. Haix, if only life is so simple.

Opinions matter xD

2010-09-10T21:54:00.004+08:00

Well if there's one thing I learnt today is to really respect other's personal opinions about smth. I mean everyone's got their own right I guess (: no point imposing on someone what you believe bah. Haha! Suddenly becoming less judemetal.

But similarly I guess I require the same respect in return (:
Perhaps it's really rare. So much so that it's increasingly non-existent. But I believe that there will be guys out there who still believe that I guess.
Idk, but instead of always counting your misfortunes, wouldn't someone be happier to count your blessings? The pasture is always Greener on the other side. That's what I told my parents. But bcos of that no one willbe truly contented with what one has. Hmms.. Ppl may say I'm saying from a too idealistic point of view.

Still, insist on what I believe in. Idk, ppl are always trying to find the perfect match. The perfect partner, the perfect life, the perfect friend, the perfect job... Ppl would want the best. It's okay to change your mind from time to time, according to reality. But if you go job hoppin trying to find the perfect job or partner switching to find the perfect one, nth's going to be perfect enough for you.

Life's too short to be constantly envious of what other's have and searching for what you deem as perfect. Bcos nth is. (: idk, maybe the video had a big impact on me I guess (: it's often the beautiful imperfections that are the most memorable (:

Instead, isn't it better to make the best of what you have? (:

i'll miss you

2010-09-05T23:43:00.001+08:00

没那么简单
就能找到 聊得来的伴
尤其是在 看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫

没那么简单
就能去爱 别的全不看
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单 一久也习惯
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管

感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话 随便听一听
自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上 关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里

相爱没有那么容易
每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那么容易
才会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心
所以最开心 曾经

too bad

2010-09-02T22:49:00.003+08:00

so i must always give in, tolerate whatever is thrown at me. it's just fair, bcos you are the one having the worst life on earth. i'm trying hard to be understandable. i dont know what else i can do anymore. its esp hard when you've tried so so hard, to get nonsense in return.

and yes, nobody will ever understand.
and i dont expect anybody to.
perhaps its such a puny thing worth to be dismissed.
forget it.

SNAILYYYY :D

2010-08-30T21:48:00.003+08:00

LOVE THE SNAIL ON MY SHOOOOOOOE! :D

pretty photo that made my day! :3
i'm getting so artistic lately xD
HOHOHOHO~

justice!

2010-08-30T19:45:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA, i promised to blog about this. to verify if the statement is true.

robin is referring to all C13 guys below.

每次我们用厕所他们都是用 cubicle 而我是用 urinal 的 lors! 因为他们怕和我站在一起会自卑 *followed by evil smirk*

LOLS, good luck huhs trying to counter all the punches you'll get ;D

INTERESTING, i wanna noe how many ppl's going to hantam him xD

beautiful imperfections

2010-08-26T05:35:00.001+08:00

wow, impactful arhs! :)
thanks! :D

hardest ordeal

2010-08-25T21:00:00.002+08:00

quoted by ruby:
kids these days shouldn't grow up believing fairytales exist. b'cos it's far too different from reality.

this is perhaps the toughest ordeal all of us would have to make it through.
can't wait for it to be over! D:
and sometimes we just shouldn't try treading along the thin line.
if all these end, i swear i'll nv allow myself to commit the same mistake again.
it's perhaps better to keep things in their respective compartments.

random

2010-08-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

发现我们电话里常常沉默了
想看的电影也不在相同了
你的眼神虽然是温柔的
却想另一个人在面前那样陌生
如果我能穿着你最不喜欢的颜色
嘴里含着念你最不爱听的情歌
你能不能对我在冷漠一点呢
至少让我以为你不在爱我了
亲爱的为什么你还不敢承认呢
亲爱的我们都是脆弱的人
亲爱的听时间的话放开手
别感伤应该感动我最亲爱的
如果我能穿着你最不喜欢的颜色
嘴里含着你最不爱听的情歌
你能不能对我在冷漠一点呢
至少让我以为你不在爱我了
亲爱的为什么你还不敢承认呢
亲爱的我们都是脆弱的人
亲爱的别牵着没感觉的手
真的不怪你我太爱你才说不出口
亲爱的我也不相信心会疲倦的
亲爱的我们别再骗自己呢
别感伤应该感动
我们都记得
相爱在城市这一刻
对我说你不爱我
谁的泪都别流
如果能从来一次
请别再这样重爱我
我太幸福就会忘了
爱总有慢慢变化时候
不怪你我太爱你才说不出口
别感伤
应该感动
我最亲爱的

HAPPPPPPPY! ~

2010-08-17T21:41:00.004+08:00

all's well and going fine :3 learnt to balance out my life again, and not overlook some things for others. (:

was studying at amk lib *and talking* with reggie and PQ bcos CSL pangseh-ed us xD hahahaha! talked about all kinds of things siah :D and then met val and van on 2nd lvl :3 had a fun day, cant wait for truncated to start! more time to meet out and du shu! ;p one bird kill 2 stones siahs :)

there's nth worth the wear of winning, But the laughter and the love of friends.

haha, when all else fails, i know they're there to cheer me up! :D great day, can't wait for PE tmr! :3

kan kai lers, things that i'm not obliged to bother about shall no longer be issues of contention :) Quote from ms Giri: its only gd for our own healths xD

infuriated

2010-08-09T02:04:00.001+08:00

must be pms. i have no idea.

dont think it'll ever be gone? ironic, when we laughed about it. b'cos that was the first thing that came to my mind. why of all times, now?

smth's vry wrong with my fone's speaker xD hahahaha! laughed like dont know what just now. wow, missed that kinda stress relief. but i dont like how laughter seems so short-lived nowadays. hmms?

missed old school songs.

happy happy happy! :D

2010-07-30T22:19:00.001+08:00

in really good mood recently :3 hahaha! things are awesome, blood pledge isn't exactly scary, but still, it was a good break from the tutorials and papers :D

the long awaited wkend is here again! :)

really glad to have the girls to laugh my break away in school ;p otherwise i'll go crazy from all those consecutive lessons! ):

'apple bottom jeans, boots with the fur'
'jenny jenny wawa!'
LOLS. i'm crazy

randomx

2010-07-26T17:27:00.001+08:00

wanted to say smth, but when you just come here, your mind goes blank D:

jiayous people! :3

hey sister!

2010-07-21T21:35:00.003+08:00

well, alot of things happened. haha! was late for school first time ever in my history schooling. quite exciting LOLS. on 13, was alr telling TWJ 'nvm, gg'. bus was late, and its not intentional, so i didnt feel so bad about it ;p

soft ball is great fun (: idk, love seeing the ball thrown through in a loop, hoping the runner nv catches up. and idk, but catching the ball (w/o hurting your hand) is such an achievement. :3

allwomenstalk has become my official 'take a break' website. haha! its amazing how those girls can update stuffs so fast with all those lovely pictures and interesting topics. HOHOHO. witnessed the thunderstorm of a lifetime. love drinking milo when its pouring. some weird fetish? LOLS. okays, i'm just stringing up a whole bunch of random disorganized thoughts. but heck, its my blog ;p

personally, i prefer the way things are now (: idk, its the kind of feeling i've always hoped to get when i first entered JC you know. the sense of security. the sad thing is, now that i feel that i've settled down and ready to enjoy what's ahead, soon i'll realise i'll be leaving -.- but its great spending some breaks laughing away til we tear. math timed prac today, my stomach was growling/churning like nobody's business!!@#$% reggie and i were having hard time trying to concentrate. LOLS. but oh well.

sometimes you hope that 10 yrs down the road, things are pretty much the same and what you want it to be. but idk, like what i told reggie and PQ, if life goes the way you planned it to be, it'll be pretty boring. there are occasions that i'll nv regret. stumbling into zhss for instance. nv really many of our first choices. but it brought us tgt (:

affinity? fate? haha, whatever you call it. idk how many more ppl i'll meet in my life. how many will be close to me for life, how many will part. what will i look like 10 yrs from now, what would i be doing, what would be my new motivation in life? sometimes you want to ans all these qns right now, but thinking about it, nah. the fun about living is to always learn for yourself the unexpected ;)

and sometimes, you'll really want to let go, but smth is stopping you. what?